Watching the sunrise
Watching the sunrise writing in my diary. For those going through struggles with meds: I’ve stopped all my meds and have had to use alternatives. For amnesia anxiety, i’ve started recording. For depression, i’ve connected with a higher power. For sense of self and feeling voiceless i’ve started a diary. For inconsistent moods, i’ve added a mood log. My diary shows the times I go into an autopilot like state and forget about the diary in general, but when I remember to update it my diary is my only safe companion. I kept having lapses in medication. Every time, it appears, that I would start to suppress my symptoms with medications the amnesia gets worse. Before saying that’s because the universe doesnt want me to take them anymore, i will say that I didnt realize how much I really struggled with memory and trauma and the meds I was taking was not inclusive of this. I would forget a couple to a few days and think I only missed a single day, I think. I think that because I see that becau...