Idk DID

 I think MK never stopped. They claim it was a failure but I have the instinct to believe they only call it a failure because of some dude infodumping on his death bed.

The whole project and both its existence and non existence is used as a dialectic that foreign operatives can use to derealize targets currently under observation by law enforcement. Internet escalation is just one branch. People are blackmailed by people pretending to be either: government, protecting one from the government; or both in a dialect that forces the synthesis of the target towards drastic actions deemed unprovoked by the public at large.

Sexual assault victims, harassment victims, ex-offenders and active offenders can be ‘protected’ just to be manipulated from the background to proxy more violence, blackmail, and suicide/murder. They can be pushed to lie to discredit themselves, or misinformed to the same effect. The whole point of the project was to create operatives that don’t ever break. One way to do that is to not inform them that they are operatives. Brainwashing, subtle NLP triggers, and covert intelligence manipulation can get bodies like the FBI, NSA, CIA, and DHS to articulate some of these criminal behaviors in people that these bodies are concerned with, and from compromised agents within these agencies. In not someone that is very interested in history, so much as how Mind Kontrol is operating presently. I may be claircognizant respective to my peers on this front. I dont want to talk about mocospace and compuserve, i just want to abuse to stop 🤣😓

Going after children is how one creates sleepers.

I’m always worried I will lose my mind and hurt somebody directly or indirectly because of this. I wish others were a bit more sensitive to this concept. 

Mind Kontrol is real.

For me, it was injection of tulpa-like abusers. I had a compulsive issue with creating a predictive tulpa-pair akin to a modern AI adversarial network to be able to break cycles of orative abuse from my parents that would take hours to play out in its own. I could predict how they would dismiss my experience, when they would do so, and how they would reaffirm the person they see me as regardless of how I respond. What I could do was wait for a misalignment to naturally occur, or represent myself honestly - but start with the part that triggers their adversarial output to short out. They can’t dismiss me if they can’t agree on who they’re even talking to amongst themselves. I believe those tulpa ‘voices’ and ‘parts’ were then noticed and abused by people on the internet to convince me further that they are not just a threat to my emotional safety and create a scenario where all I want to do is appease the ‘only person that can understand’. Leaving me in a state of trauma induced self sabotage creates memory holes I’m not even sure it’s worth opening anymore. I could spend days or weeks reliving arguments that were scarring to me because the apple of my eye at the time pulled back and modeled the same behavior that caused the original sense of servitude and further my insecure attachment style before the next person.

Also, the injected tulpas could become fixated, through suggestion, to have me do things and record it. Or, otherwise assume someone was watching that understood or was a ‘handler’ I shouldn’t challenge. I have had positive tulpas and negative ones, and as an adult I have alters and tulpas that I will talk to when no one else is around. Sometimes I even talk to the tulpas and the person in front of me in the same sentence.

I’ve consolidated myself to three primary parts now, and feel it’s the safest way to be at the moment. When I get triggered I split into a fem/fem fem/masc and inner primal force to argue through intense confrontations. If I try and assimilate singularly I leave myself open to tulpa injection. A grounded example of a tulpa is one’s perception of a higher power such as Jesus. This is why I dont like talking about Jesus the man unless context is delivered and speak mainly of Christ, which Jesus even referred to as ‘The Christ’ in the new testament (nkjv). Christ does not have a body and is the network of heavenly soul that Jesus was tapped into when He walked with and through him. Every Christian talks to Jesus. I fear the iniquity of false idol worship and I see that as something I have done in the past with various tulpas.

So Jesus Christ is and is not Jesus of Nazareth just as the ‘public’ self is often not the ‘private’ self for most people I get to know. I prefer to be the same from public to private. Christ became Jesus and Jesus became Christ and he was executed for His speech, and miracles performed that challenged the church’s merit and authority.

Jesus died for free speech a LONG time ago, in short. And, He knew what He was doing

Yeah, I didn't know that that's what I was doing, but tulpa is the best way to describe the experience of arguing with the voices - but knowing why those voices are there and that they aren't real, are a part of my unconscious and closer to a 'dream self' created for a purpose that just isn't relevant at the moment. Then I ended up fracturing eventually. I started to talk from a split-perspective to argue points against two people blitzing their worldview over things. When I feel like something is unfair or I haven't gotten a chance to express what I'm feeling, what I'm feeling would be received with criticism and how I felt would be told to me along with how I was supposed to feel.

" I feel 'this' " " No, you feel 'tHIs' - and you need to feel 'that'. The fact you think you can just say you feel "this" when you should be 'that'ing instead of just feeling 'tHIs' is the problem. " At first, I thought my parents were right and I was wrong about my feelings and now we're just kinda stuck like this XD